It has been awhile since I posted any update here. The past
few months have been an important turning point of my life. From being stuck
with commitment and responsibilities to being 'freed' with more personal time
and space, everything that happened is truly a lifetime lesson. It is as though
a wake-up call to me.
The spiritual healing journey in the past 2 months had really opened my eyes
& mind. Though it is not the similar one as seen in "Eat Pray
Love", it is full of happiness & life enjoyment despite not earning a
decent pay and living off my saving. I've learned to live in the present, let
go of things, forgive and most importantly, dare to live my dreams. At first,
supports from family and friends (especially close friends) were not that
encouraging, given the harsh reality we live in - yes, money is above
everything. However, I'm fortunate enough to have known a group of friends -
whom I haven't met most of them before - who sincerely extends their hands of
support through words of encouragement, experience sharing and of course, the
power of the law of attraction and gratitude.
At one point, I feel that surrounding myself with the right people is extremely important to keep me on track of my dreams. As some of us have heard it before "we are the mean of the five persons who we spent most time with", it is definitely helpful to have supportive friends with positive energy and attitude during the dark days. At times, it just dawned on me that friends I have known for years - the ones who I studied and hanged out with during schooling years - do not really understand what's on my mind and have shown the least support. Perhaps, it is the working world that has changed us, ripping us further apart as everyone is traveling on a different direction after graduation. Perhaps, it was I who had changed the most - in terms of mentality and mindset - during these few years that I no longer have the sense of engagement with them, to an extent that I am unable to approach them for advice when I am facing dilemmas and problems. Sometimes, I've been thinking perhaps I've certain expectation towards who I shall approach for advice - I need someone who is matured and professional and able to give advice like a counselor, life coach, psychologist and the like even though they are not in the profession.
As I am not a person who go high profile on what I want or what I am currently doing or speak my mind all the time, many may not understand me well. They may have the impression that I am a soft and quiet girl who keeps to herself most of the time, difficult to mix around or not fun to be with. Some of my friends tried to influence me to become more sporting, outgoing or follow their styles or way of living, in which I'm glad that they would like me to blend in into their group. Perhaps to some of them, clubbing, drinking, playing “truth or dare”, being crazy or cursing when things don’t turn out the way they expected are part of growing into a mature adult. Unfortunately, the harder they try, the more uncomfortable I am. Perhaps, this is what we call "just be yourself" and "don't live the life of others". Solitude has provided me with the space to think deeper, to see things more clearly, to detect loopholes and to come out with wiser solutions. When I speak and mingle around a lot with negative energy, I find it more difficult to think deeper as there is just way too much negative noise around. Perhaps I am still weak on standing firm on my ground. Perhaps the positive energy in me is still waiting to be fully released. Perhaps it is my belief that "action speaks louder than words" as my experiences at workplace have proven it time and again.
At one point, I feel that surrounding myself with the right people is extremely important to keep me on track of my dreams. As some of us have heard it before "we are the mean of the five persons who we spent most time with", it is definitely helpful to have supportive friends with positive energy and attitude during the dark days. At times, it just dawned on me that friends I have known for years - the ones who I studied and hanged out with during schooling years - do not really understand what's on my mind and have shown the least support. Perhaps, it is the working world that has changed us, ripping us further apart as everyone is traveling on a different direction after graduation. Perhaps, it was I who had changed the most - in terms of mentality and mindset - during these few years that I no longer have the sense of engagement with them, to an extent that I am unable to approach them for advice when I am facing dilemmas and problems. Sometimes, I've been thinking perhaps I've certain expectation towards who I shall approach for advice - I need someone who is matured and professional and able to give advice like a counselor, life coach, psychologist and the like even though they are not in the profession.
As I am not a person who go high profile on what I want or what I am currently doing or speak my mind all the time, many may not understand me well. They may have the impression that I am a soft and quiet girl who keeps to herself most of the time, difficult to mix around or not fun to be with. Some of my friends tried to influence me to become more sporting, outgoing or follow their styles or way of living, in which I'm glad that they would like me to blend in into their group. Perhaps to some of them, clubbing, drinking, playing “truth or dare”, being crazy or cursing when things don’t turn out the way they expected are part of growing into a mature adult. Unfortunately, the harder they try, the more uncomfortable I am. Perhaps, this is what we call "just be yourself" and "don't live the life of others". Solitude has provided me with the space to think deeper, to see things more clearly, to detect loopholes and to come out with wiser solutions. When I speak and mingle around a lot with negative energy, I find it more difficult to think deeper as there is just way too much negative noise around. Perhaps I am still weak on standing firm on my ground. Perhaps the positive energy in me is still waiting to be fully released. Perhaps it is my belief that "action speaks louder than words" as my experiences at workplace have proven it time and again.
Despite this personality of mine, I am glad that certain people in my life
actually appreciate and cherish my contributions, my works and my decisions. I
have been given lots of opportunities and spaces to improve myself better. I
might be quiet in company but when it comes to getting the job done, it has
been shown that I can be as efficient – and perhaps more efficient – than those
who are sporting, outgoing, loud or high profile. I remember clearly that
during one of the job interviews I attended, the interviewer complimented that
I am quite mature for my age after reading the essay I wrote on “What do you
think is the role of a nurturer?” Yes, this type of compliment can lift up my
spirit to dare to live my desired life.
To me, everything is linked to the way we are brought up –
our family background, the formal and informal education we received, the
groups of friends we hang out with, the society we grew up in and the unpolluted
parts of our precious mind – that affects our current and future lives. Unless
we recognize the existence of the black hole that tries effortlessly to suck us
in deeper and deeper, and have the determination to escape from it with as
little harm as possible, we will be stuck with similar problems now and then.
Sometimes, we may need to be pushed to the bottom point of our life to start
seeing things from a different perspective and take charge of our life. In the
end, it is all about the choices we made and going to make that bring us to
where we are today and in the future.
Source: Facebook sharing
*Love & Hope for better tomorrow*
~Si3wLiNg~
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2 comments:
So wonderful indded.. Thanks a lot SiewLing for sharing.. You are a very inspiring friend..
Hi Anwar, thanks for your continuous support too...you've inspired me too ;-)
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